memory

Daylight, see the dew on the sunflower,
And a rose that is fading,
Roses wither away,
Like the sunflower I yearn to turn my face to the dawn
I am waiting for the day



I know what I've done; I felt the power and the longing-again and again, it's always this, yes, the surging of fire and water and breaking, shattering dreams, so many fragments to fall away to your false tides. Again. I've killed you again. But I won't let go. Not now, not ever.

The brightness of sunlight is wilting like a spent flower, withering and breaking away, yet again, to darkness. Oh, gods, I already miss the light; but I don't deserve the comfort of it all. The moon is my friend, now, shadowing my perfect world. Isn't it strange...

Won't you forgive me? The pool, the memory, your eyes say you will but your pain is all too clear. Hikou, don't you know I love you most? There's nothing more tragic than the gentle death-sigh, I've killed you again and you know it, and there's nothing I can do.

Lucid. Hands, cold as ice, clasping for eternity in seconds, gods no I won't let you go, no no no... Just hold on a little while, ne? I'll save you from anything, why this? The water-slashes across my back are little more than kitten scratches, and I know you have more power than this. I can still feel you in my arms, but you're lying there fading before me like the snow before the bright, bright sun...

I loved you, I love you still, your demon-wings are gone, I knew it wasn't you so don't you cry...this water, it's all tears for the sins we've committed. But we did it for love...

Suzaku, give me strength for I fear mine is leaving, leaving with the man before me with the eyes of water, flood-flesh that's glistening in my hand, glistening with all my tears. Your eyes are closing, don't go, don't go!

To water I return.

I'll never let go...

I've got you, here in my heart.

-fin
revised 18.10.06

Yeah, that's right. It used to be a couple pages longer, but it was a couple pages of utter mindless drivel. After the initial writing, I'd disliked it for a long time, but had never gotten around to actually doing anything about it. I kind of hope I never see it again.